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Prologue
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I
Becoming a Warrior
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Chapter 1
From Civilian to Soldier
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Chapter 2
For Cause or Comrade?
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Chapter 3
Payback
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II
The Battlefield of Emotions
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Chapter 4
The Guilt they Carry
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Chapter 5
Interrogation: In the Moral Shadowland
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Chapter 6
In the Face of Torture
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III
The War after the War
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Chapter 7
Loosening the Stoic Armor
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Chapter 8
Body and Body Parts
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Chapter 9
From Soldier to Civilian
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Epilogue In Memoriam: Ted Westhusing
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Acknowledgments
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Notes
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Bibliography
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Credits
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Index
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